Bentley

This afternoon we are putting our dog Bentley to sleep.  I've been trying to convince Tom to cancel the appointment since the minute we made it.  I know it has to happen but it's killing me.  We got Bentley right after we bought the house.  It was literally love at firt sight.  Tom had spent all day looking up dogs online and when I got home from work he started to show me.  Bentley was like the 5th picture he showed me and I was sold.  He's adorable. 

The problem is.... he has shown agression towards other dogs (including our other dog Smoke) and 3 kids!  The first two kids we could justify.... the first time he was eating and 6 kids surrounded him, of course he would be upset.  The second time a kid was trying to play with him but I think he just saw it as her taking his toys from him.... But the third time was completely unprovoked and uncalled for.  While we don't ahve kids yet, its not fair to Bentley that every time our neice or friends come over he gets locked away in the bedroom.  We thought about rehoming him but can't responsibly say that that would be a safe option.  What happens if he runs away from his new home (which he likes to do) and encounters kids while hes on his field trip?  It just is not safe.

I'm so scared to go to the appointment today.  I don't want to do this at all.  Ugh.  Tom wants to burry him in the garden but we're not sure that we can dig down far enough.  Also now sure if I can handle driving the 30 minutes back from the vets with Bentley in the back seat.  We might have him creamated and spread his ashes in the garden (his favorite place to dig and lay down).  I'm getting tears all over the keyboard as I type this.  Man this sucks.

 

March Resolutions Update

1. Walk the dogs daily (at least on days when i am home before 6pm).
No update... still not happening regularly.  Will be down to one dog after this afternoon :(  Must make walking him a bigger priority.  (See next blog post for more info on the dogs)

2. Run two week nights and one long run on the weekend.
I haven't been tracking it in this fashion but since Tom for me a MiCoach for my birthday I have run 6 times in the past two weeks.  I have workouts already scheduled on my MiCoach calendar for now until June 10th when I finihs my first running program using it.  YAY.

3. Do a workout video on nights when Tom is on night work.
Have not been doing this... but basketball practice has been helping to give me some strength training mixed in with the running.  Also going to try 20 pushup and 20 sit ups 3 times a day starting when I go back to work on Tuesday.  When I first get to work, before picking the class up from recess and before driving home.  Takes 2 minutes to do this.  No excuses.  In fact changing this resolution....

3. Do a workout video on nights when Tom is on night work.
3. 20 pushups and 20 situps 3times a day when at work.


4. Cleanse facebook friends (sorry... but if i haven't talked to you since the one class we had together in high school... then we probably don't need to keep in touch)
Done!  Sort of.... Last night I was on facebook and some people showed up that I probably meant to get rid of.  When I was doing this over the weekend facebook show me an alphabetical list of my friends so I had to keep searching letter by letter and I think some people slipped through the cracks.

5. Print out pictures once a month and put into photo album. Having a digital camera has killed my photo albums.
Ummm... did not take any pictures in March.  What is wrong with me?  I love pictures!  Maybe I'll just keep my camera out and on the kitchen counter as a visual reminder.  Hmmmm....